I Choose...

I Choose...
to live by choice, not by chance;
to make changes, not excuses;
to be motivated, not manipulated;
to be useful, not used;
to excel, not compete.

I Choose

self-esteem, not self pity.

I Choose

to listen to my inner voice, not the random opinion of others.

- Extracted from a post on Facebook. I don't know who is the originator.

emo day

felt very sad for myself since this afternoon. what have achieved for my past 11-12 years.

what makes this worst : i had bad diarrhoea for whole day.

for now, i just don't feel like talking. it has been quite a while since i feel so depressed.

New part time job

Recently I take up a part time job to help my eldest brother on his business.

He asked me to help him many times. And I rejected many times and hesitated very long on taking up the job for few reasons :
1. Unable to commit full time.
2. I prefer not to work for relative.

My brother told me that I could work from home and at own time so long complete the assigned task. And added that I don't need to give my commitment as I could leave the job by giving a week notice.

I then accepted the job, hoping to earn some $ and learning knowledge on setting up own business.

To my shock, I have to take up many roles - administrative & website administrator & sales?!?! With a small fraction of my previous salary.

One of first few tasks is to mail 350 over advertising leaflets with letter out. Noted that the letter is addressed to individuals, means that I have to prepare the mailing labels and stick on 350 letters. This is very tedious and my brother kept chasing me to mail the letters out. Every night I will receive SMS from him on the status update. This task was assigned on Monday afternoon. He sent me the letter on Tuesday noon and he expected me to mail everything out by Tuesday night?!? I know the urgency but I have only two hands and ain't this suppose to be part time. I ended up work till Wednesday 5.30am and Thursday 2am. Feeling so exhausted and effort not appreciated.

Many times I wanted to give up but I keep telling myself to finish up so I don't need to do it again. This is the mindset I have when I was clearing 100 over storage boxes alone.

Now just feel like resting and doing nothing for next few days but I can't as I have a lot of tasks to work on and house chores are piling up. Guess I just have to drink more coffee for now.

Quote of the day : Positive Thinking

"Once you replace negative thoughts with positive ones, you'll start having positive results."
-Willie Nelson
For 30+ years, I have been a negative thinking person and this resulted I wasn't happy most of the time. I don't know since when I started to think differently. Partly is due to the encouragement and positive thinking from the hubby. Partly is due to my girl. I definitely want and hope she grows up to be a happy person with full of hope & optimistism and of coz positive thinking.

So for us to instill positive values to her, we got to have positive thoughts ourselves. Constantly remind myself the beautiful things in my life and appreciate and treasure what I currently have. 

Creative art 01 : Telescopes

Last night, Faith kept saying she wants to do some "dip dip dab dab" art craft. We do not understand and asked her what is that. After listened to her explanation, I then explained to her that we don't use container of glue for art craft and only school uses brush in glue container.

This morning I thought maybe she will enjoy something close to what she wants to do. I prepared three toilet paper rolls and some colored paper.

Guess what she made...

She made three telescopes during lunch today and said one for her, one for Kate and one for Megan. They are her NAFA classmates.

After she finished, she put in balacony and dried. I didn't get any photo as I was focusing too much on getting her ready for school.

She enjoyed herself.. with me at the background screaming at her to eat faster and don't walk around.

Surprise birthday present from Brighton classmate

Madness rush twice a day

Twice a day....
1. From the time Faith wake up till she is fully dressed for Brighton school in the morning.
2. When she got home from Brighton and finish her lunch and dress her up to NAFA in the afternoon.

Luckily this is only for a month. I am sure my blood pressure is no longer low as before.

Driving me really crazy when she walks around during lunch and dilly dally when there is already short of time. Only when I show my anger face and she will buck up and do thing with haste. I just don't understand why she has to wait till people get angry and will listen. Are all the kids these days behave in this way?

I don't want to lose my cool anymore and I want to ON TIME from now on. I get very irritated when I know I going to be late.

Revised schedule for my little one:
1. Wake up at 07:45AM SHARP for passing urine and then drink milk.
2. Be ready by 08:15AM and leave home.

3. Lunch is to be completed by 12:30 PM.
4. Brush teeth - Pass urine - Get dressed. And leave home at 12:45 PM.

New rule for her:
1. Wake up and leave home on time.
2. NO WALKING or CLIMBING when having lunch.
3. Brush teeth and wear socks and shoes herself.

Wish me all the best for 7 more days.