Have you had your calling?

Today I am feeling a bit down. I am upset with myself of not knowing what I am good in and what I truly like to do. I followed what people tell me what is good and I worked hard and did my best. I did not do anything to change the flow even I know I don't enjoy as I keep thinking that I can do it. With this attitude, I didn't deliberate what I want to do as a career.

I had a chat with my hubby on this topic in the afternoon and he told me if I don't know what I want then do something at least I am happy with. $ is very important but not everything.

I then read an article online. This article covers a brief story of a MNC's CEO who was very poor when he was very young and how he worked hard in his early life and had his calling when he was at his twenties. He then strived towards his ambition/calling and become a CEO now.

I don't want to live a life with no goal. But what is my calling? Sigh... If you have yours, do strive towards and live your life to fullest.

Applied 5 on 29 March 2012

Applied 5 on 23 March 2012

Appreciate if u could stop asking me how many I apply every day. I know your urgency and anxiety. From today I will update here daily how many I apply for the day.

Once you learn to quit, it becomes a habit.

"Once you learn to quit, it becomes a habit."

~ Vince Lombardi
 

This is so true in my life. For so many cases I just give up after 5 mins try and this giving up easily habit indeed becomes part of me. Feeling a bit down of not seeing great achievement in life so far. CHANGE is something I yearning to see.

Call it quits

After doing too many repetitive tasks which took much of my time (some days I worked till 5am), I decided to call it quits.

Brother had assured me that I will pick up business knowledge but I didn't learn much and sometimes was assigned short timeline and tedious administrative works like data entry for 600 over feedback forms and post 300 over letters+leaflets.

I decided to resign from this short stint and gave my 1 week notice start from next Monday as I am taking leave from this Wednesday to Friday.

I Choose...

I Choose...
to live by choice, not by chance;
to make changes, not excuses;
to be motivated, not manipulated;
to be useful, not used;
to excel, not compete.

I Choose

self-esteem, not self pity.

I Choose

to listen to my inner voice, not the random opinion of others.

- Extracted from a post on Facebook. I don't know who is the originator.

emo day

felt very sad for myself since this afternoon. what have achieved for my past 11-12 years.

what makes this worst : i had bad diarrhoea for whole day.

for now, i just don't feel like talking. it has been quite a while since i feel so depressed.