We have been back from Bahamas almost two months. Faith has settled down with her new daily routine. As for myself, I have been busy with endless house chores, unpacking boxes from last year move-in and brainlessly watching Taiwanese and Korean dramas. I got so obsessed that I could watch till 5am and wake up at 9am to ferry Faith. I decided to put this obsession to a stop by downloading movie rather than serials. Hee.
Well.. Unpacking is almost done. Hopefully I could fully complete by end of next week.
I have been thinking what should I be doing after that. I definitely don't want to be a bummer and I want to contribute to family income. I felt bad of putting my hubby as sole breadwinner ever since I left my previous job a year ago. But I have been hesitating to go back to corporate work, not because of stress or I want to be a housewife. It is more on our intention to have second kid in very near future. And partly also I have not find out what I really want to do.
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Well... After much repetitive thinkings and too much uncertainties, I think I will reach nowhere if I continue pondering. I shall just move on and get a job. In this way I will get to pay my own bill and also not away from corporate world for too long. Since the MC last April, I sort of learn that sometime I should not plan too far ahead and worry too much. Things might just happen otherwise and screwed up entire plan and most of time is beyond our control.
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I will definitely miss the days I snuggle with my girl when she wake up in the morning. I will miss the days I ferry her to and fro and our little conversations in the car. I will miss preparing her school bag and surprise her with little snack. I will miss the days we waited patiently for her dad to off work and have dinner together.
Strangely I don't feel that I will miss the days I doing unpack and house chores. I took a lot of time doing these when I at home. And I don't feel that i will miss the time I spend in watching serials. I spent much time on this too.
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I will have to learn to live with my MIL. I hope just my MIL. It worries me a lot when my FIL said he wants to rent out their flat and move into our apartment. Sigh.. As I will not be able to ferry Faith, I will need my MIL to stay with us during weekdays to take care of Faith. I hope my hubby could make an arrangement that we could have just only three of us family time during the weekend.
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Wish me lots of luck in coming new chapter of my life.
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